Saturday, October 29, 2011

I Believe - Rough

Verse 1

The sky is falling all around me
Pushing me down
Falling slowly,
Trying, dying
Is it worth it in the end?

Chorus

Push comes to shove now
What am I fighting for?
You’re the reason I’m still standing
Are you still there?

Verse 2

Vision blurring all around me
I can’t see clearly
They say love is blind
But if I can’t see you
Why do I go on?

Chorus

Push comes to shove now
What am I fighting for?
You’re the reason I’m still standing
Are you still there?


Bridge


Even though I don't believe in much
Love, I believe in us

Thursday, October 6, 2011

Afraid to Fall (rough)

With your bright blue eyes
And your golden hair
I can see clearly now
Fireworks going off inside my mind

With your beautiful moves
And your flawless lines
Dancing through my heart
Making my world revolve

With all the love
Your heart can hold
You held me close
And I swore we’d never let go

It’s like the rainy day before the clouds part
It’s like the brokenness of my unrepentant heart
Without your love, without your touch
My life seems so small, where’d you go?
I’m so afraid to fall

Friday, April 15, 2011

Stand Still - Original Song

Verse 1

Standing in silence
Crying through pain
Wanting for naught
But it’s all in vain

Chorus

(cause I’m)
Spinning. Falling.
Calling. Drowning.
I don’t know what’s true
And I don’t know what I’m to do
Reality’s a blur. Girl,
Won’t you stand still?

Verse 2

Walk across the room.
Try to stay on my feet.
Moving through hurt
Can’t miss a beat

Chorus

(cause I’m)
Spinning. Falling.
Calling. Drowning.
I don’t know what’s true
And I don’t know what I’m to do
Reality’s a blur. Girl,
Won’t you stand still?

Bridge


I don’t know how it came to this
Lost and confused in my own mind
I can’t see you right in front of me
Tell me you’re still there

Chorus

(and I’m still)
Spinning. Falling.
Calling. Drowning.
I don’t know what’s true
And I don’t know what I’m to do
Reality’s a blur. Girl,
Won’t you stand still?

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Battlefield - Original Song

VERSE 1

Standing on this battlefield
Stained red with love
My heart waged war against my mind
My nerves and my strength

PRE-CHORUS

Could this be life?
Could we be real?

CHORUS

Hear me screamin’
Through these feelings
Pain isn’t so bad in the long run
Don’t leave me sleepin’
Barely breathin’
Just let me feel like I’m alive

VERSE 2


It all comes burning down
Whenever you’re around
And it’s all falling apart
My empty hope of a dream

PRE-CHORUS

Could this be life?
Could we be real?

CHORUS

Hear me screamin’
Through these feelings
Pain isn’t so bad in the long run
Don’t leave me sleepin’
Barely breathin’
Just let me feel like I’m alive

VERSE 3


Living life moment by moment
It’s the way it has to be
Won’t get distracted
Can’t get relaxed

PRE-CHORUS


Could this be life?
Could we be real?

CHORUS

Hear me screamin’
Through these feelings
Pain isn’t so bad in the long run
Don’t leave me sleepin’
Barely breathin’
Just let me feel like I’m alive
I need to feel alive

Thursday, November 4, 2010

My Heart Back - Original Song

verse 1
I throw on my shirt
Getting ready to go out tonight
Look in the mirror
See my future laid bare
Gonna have a good time
With my friends, not a care in the world
I think to myself
Why haven’t I done this before?

chorus
Is it over yet?
I’m done with you now
Is this as hard as it gets?
I just want my heart back

verse 2
Step in the room
Feel the music rip through my soul
I feel alive again
Can you tell that I’m movin’ on?
movin’ and feelin’ along
Baby without you
Staring across the room
I can feel your eyes on me


chorus

Is it over yet?
I’m done with you now
Is this as hard as it gets?
I just want my heart back

bridge

You’re the last thing
Last thing on my mind
Cause when this night is over
And the last song’s played
You’ll be the last one
Last one I see through
Girl can I tell you
You’ll be the last thing I think of
Before I close my eyes

Chorus/tag
Are we over yet?
Am I over you yet?
Is this as hard as it gets?
I just want it, I want it, I want
I can’t have my heart back

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Mirror - Original Song

verse 1
I remember when
When I used to have it all together
I was the one you always wanted
Do you remember that?

chorus
Look in the mirror now
And tell me what you see
I can’t see anything
The reflection isn’t me

verse 2
Never get to close they say
That’s how I’ll live
Cause there’s just no way
Anyone could replace you

chorus
Look in the mirror now
And tell me what you see
I can’t see anything
The reflection isn’t me

verse 3
Nobody knows
Nobody cares
Who I am underneath it all
Now who I am is defined by who I was

chorus
Look in the mirror now
And tell me what you see
I can’t see anything
The reflection isn’t me


verse 4
That mirror’s never changing
I can’t see forward
I’m stuck in the rut you left me in
How do I escape?

chorus
Look in the mirror now
And tell me what you see
I can’t see anything
The reflection isn’t me

bridge
Why O Why did you do it?
How O How did it come to this?
I just wanna see you in that mirror
Staring back at me
The future plain to see

Does somebody care?
Does somebody know?

chorus
Look in the mirror now
And tell me what you see
I can’t see anything
The reflection isn’t me

ending
Does anybody care?
Does anybody know?

Friday, October 15, 2010

Missing - Original Song

VERSE 1

It’s been so long since you’ve been gone
Since I’ve seen your face
Although life goes on
I’m just standing here
Filled with pain

It’s like I’m running forward
But my feet won’t move
Standing still when all I want
Is to be with you

CHORUS

Why can’t I find you?
You’re just out of view
Why can’t I touch you?
You’re just beyond my reach
I’ve been hanging on to this thread called hope
I just want to be with you
Am I missing or are you?

VERSE 2

Spending time together
And yet so far apart
We’ve been through it all
But still we’re strangers

You aren’t the one I knew
You said the same to me
We thought we had each other
When all we had were broken dreams

CHORUS

Why can’t I find you?
You’re just out of view
Why can’t I touch you?
You’re just beyond my reach
I’ve been hanging on to this thread called hope
I just want to be with you
Am I missing or are you?

VERSE 3


Life is what will be
No matter what I say or do
I want nothing to do with me
Even though I’m overdue
For some time with you

Your smile still captivates
Your eyes still sparkle
I want no else
But I’m just too late

CHORUS


Why can’t I find you?
You’re just out of view
Why can’t I touch you?
You’re just beyond my reach
I’ve been hanging on to this thread called hope
I just want to be with you
Am I missing or are you?

BRIDGE

And I’m still searching
I’m still running
I’m still chasing
I’m still missing you

ENDING

I can find you
Right here in front of me
I can hold you
In my arms where you belong


Now that I’ve found you
I can’t let you go
We won’t be missing

Sunday, October 3, 2010

Somethin' About You - Original Song

Verse 1

We first met so long ago
We were kids and I didn’t know
Just how my world would change
What you’d mean to me

Chorus

There’s just something about you
The way you’ve stolen my heart
Just something about you
The way you light up my life
And even though it’s so cliché
I’ve got no other way to say
You’re everything to me

Verse 2

We grew up and learned about
Just what love is all about
Guys and girls we’re all the same
Guys and girls we’re not the same

Chorus

There’s just something about you
The way you’ve stolen my heart
Just something about you
The way you light up my life
And even though it’s so cliché
I’ve got no other way to say
You’re everything to me

Verse 3

And now we’re in our teens
Finding out what our love means
We’ve known each other oh so well
Now my world feels like hell

Chorus

There’s just something about you
The way you’ve stolen my heart
Just something about you
The way you light up my life
And even though it’s so cliché
I’ve got no other way to say
You’re everything to me

Bridge

And even though it’s over
Baby tell me we’re not through
Cause the honest truth, no matter how it hurts
You’re still on my mind
I’m not over you no
I’m not over you

Ending

There’s still something about you
You still have my heart
Still something about you
You still are my light
And even though it’s so cliché
I’ve got no other way to say
You’re everything to me

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

What is Love? - Original Song

(verse 1)
Love’s a precious thing
Why do we take it so lightly?
We say those simple words
But do we know what we’re saying?

(verse 2)
Love’s a gift
So why do we make it a burden?
So often we show love
But are we really?

--- Instrumental ---


(verse 3)
Love is patient
Why aren’t we?
So many times we won’t wait
Why don’t we?

(verse 4)
Love is all we need
So why do we feel empty?
We turn to other things
But don’t we know better?

(bridge)
He felt and He hurt and He bled and He died
On that cross two thousand years ago
Cause you heard our cry
Lord come save

And He felt and He hurt and He bled and He died
For all now ‘cause He loves us so
You hear our cry
Lord come change

(ending)
Lord come save
For the glory of your name
Lord come change
By the power of your love
Lord come heal
By the mercy of your grace
Lord come love
Lord come love

Friday, November 27, 2009

Those little words

"je t'aime"
"ich liebe dich"
"ti amo"
"te quiero"
"I Love You"

3 very small words, all of which are used individually in daily conversation by most people one this planet...in whatever language they speak

Isn't is interesting...at any given point in time, literally thousands of people across the globe are saying this?

And yet, we (read: Americans) are so idiotic and foolhardy that we don't mean what we say

Well, we (self-proclaimed Christians) hardly ever mean what we say, so why should this be any different?

Let's break down the one of the biggest phrases ever uttered shall we?

'I'. Literally meaning 'me, the person speaking'...but not just me, everything within me. Everything that defines me. Everything that my life has been and is. Everything I am is 'I'.

'You'. Literally meaning the person being spoken to'...but also not just that person, but everything that person is. 'You' is defined as all that makes the other person themself,everything known about that person. That's 'You'

'love'. Literally meaning "strong affection, attachment, and admiration" (from merriamwebster.com)...I like that definition, especially the alliteration

However we, as Christians know...or rather, we ought to know and acknowledge that 'Love' is quite simply defined as 'God'.

1 John 4:8 tells us that "God is Love"...

So often I think we replace 'Love' with 'love'....especially when we say 'I love (love) you'

Because for Me (I) to say 'I Love You', and for Me to not be lying, or simply over exaggerating I must truly mean 'I, God, and You'

Because romantic relationships will not work out as intended without God in the middle of it, defining it, refining it, and keeping it alive.

Because, if there is no 'God' there is no 'Love'...and then it's just 'Me' and 'You'...with absolutely nothing going on

Friday, June 26, 2009

Irresistable Revolution pt 1

I apologize for not posting in a while...life just kinda got in the way

I have been reading a book called "Irresistible Revolution" by Shane Claiborne and it has TOTALLY rocked my world.

I will caution those who would rush out and get it to read...that this book is NOT for everyone. I would even go so far as to say that if you're not 'on fire' or want to be 'on fire' for the Lord then this book is not what you should be reading.

If you're not confidant in your faith, or are wavering in you personal beliefs...well...I suggest reading 'The Bible'...it comes highly recommended :)

I intend to do a series of posts about my insights into this wonderful little book.

So here's the first one on the introduction (yes, there's good stuff in the introduction)

The very first sentence of the book says "Christianity often has offered little to the world, other than the hope that things will be better in heaven"

I had to take a minute right there...and I realize how true it is. Today's 'church' has decided to ignore the suffering of today and simply inform the sufferers that 'heaven will be better'. Sad isn't it?

"Perhaps it should not surprise us that Jesus says that if the Christians remain silent, then the rocks will cry out...or the rock stars"

This quote comes after the scathing comparison of activism against poverty and other so-called 'worldly' issues that affect millions of people daily. The comparison is simple: 'worldly' figures (celebrities, politicians, rock stars, pop icons, etc) are working against these 'moral issues' while Christian 'stars' (recording artists, pastors, evangelists, etc) do nearly nothing to change the world's 'status quo'...We as Christians have become so wrapped up in 'saving souls' (which in and of itself is NEVER a bad thing, we are called to save souls after all) but do not love these same people who are not only in need of a Savior, but also are in need of basic necessities in order to live their lives.

"there ARE moral issues other than abortion and homosexuality"

Wait...what?

No, really?

There are?

Yup, there are. War, politics, economy, poverty, global warming, (ok, that one's a stretch)and anything else you can think of. 'Moral issue' simply means "Issues which involve a difference of belief and not a matter of preference."

"activists call me conservative, religious people call me liberal. Often though I am simply labeled a 'radical."

Oh how sweet this is. And you know what, I'm gonna take this another step. If we are truly Christians (read, Christ followers) then how can we allow ourselves to be put into one of the world's labels? I honestly couldn't care less if you're a republican, democrat, conservative, or liberal. All I care about is whether or not your lifestyle and morals reflect those of Christ Jesus and those presented in the Bible. An you know what else? I really don't think that when you die God's gonna ask you which political party you belonged to.

"the word 'radical' really just means 'root'. And radical is not limited to 'saints' and 'martyrs'."

Can I get an amen?

Aren't we glad that you don't have to be 'declared holy' (that's what being 'sainted' is defined as) in order to be radical?

"As a radical I want to get to the 'root' of what it means to love and the root of what has messed up our world"

oh this just keeps getting better...Read that again....

Not only should we be getting to the root of showing love and understanding love, but the problems of this world can not be fixed quickly, we must understand the root of the problem in order for the problem to be fully eradicated.

"What do we do when we are the ones who have gone sane in a crazy world?"

I have nothing to say to that, simply because I do not know if I can truly claim that yet. To have gone 'sane' in the craziness means, to me, that we have come to the point in our relationship with, not only God our Father, but with those we are called and commissioned to love (neighbors AND enemies)

"The whisper cries out for God to save the church from us Christians and breathe new life into an aging body"

What I want to point our here is the word 'whisper'. There is the story in the Bible in which Elijah hears the voice of God. But that voice is not the powerful wind, ground shattering earthquake, or raging fire. The voice was a whisper, small and only audible and recognized by those who are listening for it.

Is it true? Does the church need saving from Christians? I say yes, simply because we have forgotten what it means to be a Christian.

You don't have to agree with me. But if you don't, well, I challenge you to listen to 'the' Paul Washer sermon...

"Many of us are refusing to allow distorted views of faith to define us"

Oh how I long to be counted among those many. To get to the point where this world doesn't recognize me as a 'Christian' but as a 'Christ-follower'. The world view of what a Christian is and how a Christian is supposed to act is largely inconsistent with the Biblical pattern that is presented, but largely consistent with the life the majority of 'Christians' currently live.

"We live in a world that wants things bigger and bigger. We want to 'supersize' our fries, sodas, and church buildings"

Ouch....that hits hard right there

We are more interested in how large our church is (whether that be building size or the number of people) and the things that truly matter are overlooked simply because they aren't 'big' things.

"Even though people around the country thirst for something new, the elephant and the donkey are still the largest and most stubborn of animals"

How true is that? As I've already said, this world put labels on things. And if you don't fit in the labels, you better have a REALLY good reason for people to listen. I question whether the church's view of 'witnessing' is enough for people to actually listen.

"Our problem is that we no longer have martyrs, we have celebrities"

Ow, ow, ow....yet, it's true. Christian martyrs have gone out of style. We now have pastors that are larger than life and evangelists who are blown to gigantic proportions. It's just no longer 'cool' to be a Christian and for the world to attack you for it.



That is only a small part of what I gleaned from the introduction....I will continue to give you my thoughts as I travel through this book.

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Ready - Are you?

When I think of the word 'ready' I am immediately reminded of the old Royal Rangers motto "Ready for anything".

But are we truly ready for anything? To be truly ready for anything life throws our way?

I'm the first person to say I'm never truly in a constant state of readiness. I was not ready for the disappointment at fine arts. Nor am I always ready for what God would have for me to do. But the key to overcoming shock, disappointment, and whatever else might come our way is to simple be totally and utterly dependent on God.

But utter dependence is not something easily achieved, but it is something that can be constantly improved

ready - Are you?

Sunday, February 15, 2009

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Are you a Christian or an American Christian?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uuabITeO4l8

That is the infamous Paul Washer sermon, that I FINALLY listened to.

The scary thing is, its dead on.

I think my views have been changed, but I can now feel that smoldering fire in my soul heating up...

The sermon is about an hour long...only listen to it if you can actually take an hour and really listen to it...if it challenges you to do something about the sorry state of this world, do something.

If it doesn't, well, that's a good sign that you need to evaluate your faith.

Friday, January 23, 2009

control

Are you a control freak? Do you have to know every little detail about something, just because?

While being a control freak may be a bad thing, there is something that you should know all the little details of and have complete control of: your body.

Your tongue for example is extremely dangerous simply because words can tear things down in an instance, not mater how long they've been standing.

You CAN control what comes out of your mouth...but do you choose to control it?

But I don't mean just physical, tangible parts of you, emotions are also in need of control.

Anger, sadnesss, opinions, ideas, and many others all have their place, but it's up to use to use your brain and common sense to determine when these should be let loose.

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

new year new changes

Change is good.

Believe it or not, it's also needed.

To get stuck in a routine of the way it 'used to be' or 'because it works' or 'because its always been this way' is a dangerous viewpoint.

If you're not open to change, how can you draw closer to God? If you're not open to change how can God use you? Wouldn't you actually be limiting God if you never allow Him to do anything different than the norm through you?

Its only 7 days into the new year, and I'm already feeling and seeing changes. The XLR8 worship for instance, will be traveling and leading worship with P. Cornell. I'm going to be playing the synthesizer in addition to keys, which isn't something I have a lot of experience in, but I'm willing to learn.

Brendan and I have have scrapped out FAF short film in favor of a new topic, which if we can pull it off should be AMAZING.

I challenge you, make a resolution for this new year to simply be open to change

Saturday, December 20, 2008

when the muse strikes

you must let it out right?

Unfortunately the muse struck me at 1 am. Not fun, especially cause I've got mono and need rest now more than ever.

But inspiration is a God thing and he's always got his reasons right?

I've tried writing songs before, and they've never really been all that good.

But this song has been coming to me in bits and pieces for about 5 months now. I've got a melody bouncing around in my head, and the lyrics have meaning. This won't be one of those songs that you can sing without thinking about the words.

Last night/this morning was a MAJOR break through lyrically, and I'm now seriously working to finish it for faf this year.

I say all that to say 2 things.
1 - I would appreciate prayer for this. I can feel that this is one of those 'God things' and this song could touch people. I want that to remain my focus, not me being able to write a good song.

2 - Don't ignore God's 'voice', no matter how strange it may seem. When God tells you to do something, do it!

You'll never regret it

Thursday, November 27, 2008

Real - Are You?

Who are you today?

I know who I am. I am someone who is busy, but loves every minute of it. I am a leader, and am scared sometimes that people will follow me and do what I say. I am a musician, cause music = life. I am a Spirit-Filled Christian (side note: Don't you love how we divide Christians up into different groups?)

But most of all I am real, cause I've worn the mask before and it sucks.

Being real is a skill that my generation doesn't understand. Yes we are bombarded by the world telling us what's cool and what's not: That showing love (real love, not that media stuff) is a sign of weakness, that nobody really cares how you genuinely feel on the inside. Well you know what? I've been there, and I can tell you that this world has got it wrong.

Straight. Up. Wrong.

Being who you are is as essential in this life as is near anything else, cause who's gonna believe a hypocrite?

But not only is it a must, I'd be willing to bet that God hurts everytime you put on that mask over who you are. He created you to be YOU. Do you get it? You are a special, one-of-a-kind miracle of creation that God made, and God ALWAYS knows what He's doing.

Real...Are you?

Monday, November 10, 2008

"Lightbulb Moments"

Ever heard that phrase before? When someone has a good idea and says "I just had a lightbulb moment".

I was doing devotions a few days ago and read Matthew 5:16. "Let your light so shine before men". I've heard all the sermons and how Jesus is to shine through you by what you say and do. And I understand that, but how can you make this 'relevant' to today's generation?

How about a lightbulb?

For a lightbulb to work it must be properly created or prepared. If it is not ready to shine its light, it won't work at all once the power gets turned on.

For a lightbulb to work, there must be power flowing through the connection between the lightbulb and its source.

For a lightbulb to work, someone's got to turn it on.

But you know what a working lightbulb does? It drives away the darkness and replaces it with light.

Eventually the lightbulb burns out, but the power is still flowing to the lightbulb. The lightbulb just needs its inner workings to be fixed and/or refreshed.

So are you a working lightbulb? Or are you an empty socket?

Monday, November 3, 2008